Heart Wish for Bhutan !!

Himalaya Mountain ~~~~~

I shall follow his foot steps of Guru Rinpoche, to be unite with the essence of our nature, all the love and wisdom , that shall permeate the entire universe and in eternal time !! 

I brought this Beautiful Painting back and it will certainly accompany and guide me in my solitude and confusion !! 

5 days Steep Trek up to the 4200 m mountain , Dagala Thousand Lake Trek, breathtaking view, ... of course I did not go !

My Bhutanese Tour Guide , Sonam Wangyel

Many thanks to Sonam Wangyel , my tour guide during the trip , who has a modern intellect and a Bhutanese soul, tried to answer hundred questions from my curiosity , and help me understand this beautiful , civilized in its own way, but underdeveloped country,  while  I almost fell down during the  difficult down hill from Tiger's Nest, and always gave him headache by not dressing or behaving traditionally conservative ... ! :)

In fact, I wish the chaotic competition and , materialism form the outside world , will not destruct Bhutan's purity ...!!
Although they do benefit much from tourism, their notion of an ideal  life should not be account for its wealth, but its aesthetics, moral, devotion, their love for nature and order, and above all, of course, the Happiness !!!! 

Aamir Khan's 真相訪談

當今印度最有影響力的明星，阿米爾汗，"三個傻瓜"，及"我的冠軍女兒"的主角，他不僅是演員, 製作人，導演，也是一位社會改革運動支持者！他主持的節目"真相訪談"，觀眾有五億人口，主題蓋跨印度社會上維持長久爭論性的問題，種性制度，女嬰被墮胎問題，不自由的婚姻問題等等！因此，此節目受政府官方極大的重視！

希望台灣也有如此有愛心，有想法，有行動力的明星！

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KC2noGYRcc&feature=share

Aamir Khan is not only a mega star in Bollywood but also a prominent social activist , who hosts a popular talk show on TV , discussing controversial topics such as casteless marriage, child sexual abuse, female feticide, and more ... ! The population of the audience of this talk show has reached 500 million people . The show has raised high awareness upon these issues from the Indian Government !

War and Peace on Screen !

“We can know only that we know nothing. And that is the highest degree of human wisdom.” 
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

Yes, love, ...but not the love that loves for something, to gain something, or because of something, but that love that I felt for the first time, when dying, I saw my enemy and yet loved him. I knew that feeling of love which is the essence of the soul, for which no object is needed. And I know that blissful feeling now too. To love one's neighbours; to love one's enemies. To love everything - to Love God in all His manifestations. Some one dear to one can be loved with human love; but an enemy can only be loved with divine love. And that was why I felt such joy when I felt that I loved that man. What happened to him? Is he alive? ...Loving with human love, one may pass from love to hatred; but divine love cannot change. Nothing, not even death, can shatter it. It is the very nature of the soul. And how many people I have hated in my life. And of all people none I have loved and hated more than her.... If it were only possible for me to see her once more... once, looking into those eyes to say...” 
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“If everyone fought for their own convictions there would be no war.”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“The strongest of all warriors are these two — Time and Patience.”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

tags: patience, time

“There is no greatness where there is not simplicity, goodness, and truth.”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed.”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“We love people not so much for the good they've done us, as for the good we've done them.”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“What is the cause of historical events? Power. What is power? Power is the sum total of wills transferred to one person. On what condition are the willso fo the masses transferred to one person? On condition that the person express the will of the whole people. That is, power is power. That is, power is a word the meaning of which we do not understand. ”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“Life is too long to say anything definitely; always say perhaps.”
― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

“What is bad? What is good? What should one love, what hate? Why live, and what am I? What is lie,what is death? What power rules over everything?" he asked himself. And there was no answer to any of these questions except one, which was not logical and was not at all an answer to these questions. This answer was: "You will die--and everything will end. You will die and learn everything--or stop asking.” 

― Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

A Lifetime Book to Read !!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOCo_qFfQJo&list=PL_pPc6-
qR9ZyWcMc2CT3ZSGCqLQdgU3IZ

最近讀了一本沈重但意義深遠的好書「凝視死亡」～～～😎📚 我們人類卻不是長生不死的生物。我們該如何面對生命終點，一個大家都須走的路，如何活著有意義而不是充滿痛苦！🌹 🌹作者Dr. Gawande 為本書拍攝的真人真事感人的50分鐘紀錄片～
1. http://www.thirteen.org/programs/frontline/being-mortal/

😍🌹 No matter how much we long for eternity , human beings are not immortal in any case !! 

Dr. Gawande illustrates the inevitable path we all need to confront in life, which dose not have to be so suffering , but can be a meaningful one !! The following is a 50 minutes documentary movie produced by the author Dr. Gawande , which features 7 moving true stories in his book " Being Mortal "~~~~

🌹 🌹作者Dr. Gawande 為本書拍攝的50分鐘紀錄片～
1. http://www.thirteen.org/programs/frontline/being-mortal/

2 , 7 Short. episode https://www.youtube.com/watch…

“In the end, people don't view their life as merely the average of all its moments—which, after all, is mostly nothing much plus some sleep. For human beings, life is meaningful because it is a story. A story has a sense of a whole, and its arc is determined by the significant moments, the ones where something happens. Measurements of people's minute-by-minute levels of pleasure and pain miss this fundamental aspect of human existence. A seemingly happy life maybe empty. A seemingly difficult life may be devoted to a great cause. We have purposes larger than ourselves.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

tags: existence, meaning

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“A few conclusions become clear when we understand this: that our most cruel failure in how we treat the sick and the aged is the failure to recognize that they have priorities beyond merely being safe and living longer; that the chance to shape one’s story is essential to sustaining meaning in life; that we have the opportunity to refashion our institutions, our culture, and our conversations in ways that transform the possibilities for the last chapters of everyone’s lives.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“You may not control life's circumstances, but getting to be the author of your life means getting to control what you do with them.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“Being mortal is about the struggle to cope with the constraints of our biology, with the limits set by genes and cells and flesh and bone. Medical science has given us remarkable power to push against these limits, and the potential value of this power was a central reason I became a doctor. But again and again, I have seen the damage we in medicine do when we fail to acknowledge that such power is finite and always will be. We’ve been wrong about what our job is in medicine. We think our job is to ensure health and survival. But really it is larger than that. It is to enable well-being. And well-being is about the reasons one wishes to be alive. Those reasons matter not just at the end of life, or when debility comes, but all along the way. Whenever serious sickness or injury strikes and your body or mind breaks down, the vital questions are the same: What is your understanding of the situation and its potential outcomes? What are your fears and what are your hopes? What are the trade-offs you are willing to make and not willing to make? And what is the course of action that best serves this understanding?”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“Death is the enemy. But the enemy has superior forces. Eventually, it wins. And in a war that you cannot win, you don’t want a general who fights to the point of total annihilation. You don’t want Custer. You want Robert E. Lee, someone who knows how to fight for territory that can be won and how to surrender it when it can’t, someone who understands that the damage is greatest if all you do is battle to the bitter end.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“Our ultimate goal, after all, is not a good death but a good life to the very end.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“how we seek to spend our time may depend on how much time we perceive ourselves to have.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“It is not death that the very old tell me they fear. It is what happens short of death—losing their hearing, their memory, their best friends, their way of life. As Felix put it to me, “Old age is a continuous series of losses.” Philip Roth put it more bitterly in his novel Everyman: “Old age is not a battle. Old age is a massacre.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“We’ve been wrong about what our job is in medicine. We think our job is to ensure health and survival. But really it is larger than that. It is to enable well-being.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Illness, Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“In fact, he argued, human beings need loyalty. It does not necessarily produce happiness, and can even be painful, but we all require devotion to something more than ourselves for our lives to be endurable. Without it, we have only our desires to guide us, and they are fleeting, capricious, and insatiable. They provide, ultimately, only torment.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

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“Courage is strength in the face of knowledge of what is to be feared or hoped. Wisdom is prudent strength.”
― Atul Gawande, Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End

Moment of Devotion !

台灣寧瑪巴猴年猴月蓮師十萬薈供大法會

On the date of Guru Rinpoche's Birthday ! 

I pray to my Guru for always residing within me guiding me to an enlightened path.
I love you as confidently and as much as you love me.
 I pray to my Guru for your health and long life!. 
I pray to Guru Rinpoche for an infinate devotion and trust.


May I realize my true nature .
May I have more compassion and merit.
May I discover the light , the wisdom.
May I benefit more people with love and wisdom.

To all friends, associates, and others:

May you be blessed upon with all the merit .
May you eliminate all the sufferings ,
May you have all the causes of happiness.
May you achieve ultimate happiness and enlightenment.

from Angel

Meditation of the Day ~~

Meditation of the day ~ ❤️

Focus on the awareness .
Be aware of your emotions .
Is it disturbed ? 
What is the cause ?
Physical pain ? Or Emotional afflictions ?
What kind of emotion ?
Is it sadness ? Desire ? Anger ? Excitement ? Jealousy ? Regret ? Guilt? Pride ? Doubt ? Fear ? No feeling is an emotion .
Identify your emotion .
Don't deny . Don't suppress . Don't judge . Don't enhance .
Merely Be aware , identify , focus .
Accept the existence of this emotion .
Do not acknowledge ， only be the third person and watch !
You are not the emotion itself .
You are separated from each other .
Don't try to control the emotion !!
Don't analyze .
Don't conceptualize .
Don't think .
Be at the presence ⋯
Trust !!!!
Trust the existence of your emotion is the manifestation of the nature of mind .
Trust your inner nature , the primordial wisdom , the pure power of compassion !
Trust your Guru !!
Trust and focus on awareness !!
You are gone but trust the empty nature . Sometimes as broad as the sky , and space ; sometimes be as small as a muster seed ！
Be faithful and devoted , for the benefit of self and others !

For this , I pray . ❤️🙏🏻❤️

Favorite Tea House 1 , Alluring ~~~ 😉😉

Look at your problems as problems & they'll continue to hold you down. 

See them as blessings in disguise & that's what they truly become.
!
Relaxing tea time posing with smile .....

Love, Angel 

What is Truth ? Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche ~~

Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche  

顶果法王 ❤️Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche 

一生中所面临的俗事，就像永无止境的海浪，一波接著一波而来，但我们到最后还是两手空空，什么也留不住，我们的脑中走过无数的念头，一个念头生出许许多多的念头，但所有的念头都只会增加内心的骚动与不平。假如仔细反省日常行为所依据的基本价值观念，并试著找出它们从何而来，我们就会发现，这一切都源自我们未能对事物做正确的检验。

我们的所作所为，通常是根据「每一件事都是真实、具有实体」的假设而来。但是，当我们看仔细一点就会发现，现象世界就像一道彩虹，色彩鲜艳多姿，却没有任何实体存在。当天空上挂著一道彩虹，映入眼廉的是许多美丽的色彩，但彩虹不能当衣服来穿，不能当饰物来戴。没有什么是我们可以拥有的；所有的事物只不过是透过各种因缘的结合，呈现在我们面前。心中升起的念头也是如此。念头根本没有所谓实体的真实，或本质的存在。所以，念头根本没有理由拥有强过我们的力量，我们也没有理由沦为念头的奴隶。轮回与涅槃皆由心造。即使如此，心也没有什么了不起的，它只不过是一堆念头罢了。

一旦我们认清念头是虚空的，心也就失去了蒙骗我们的力量。但是，只要我们把虚假的念头当做是真的，念头就会向过去生生世世一般，继续折磨我们，该我们深受痛苦。为了达到控制「心」的目的，我们必须觉知该做什么，以及该避免什么；我们也必须保持警觉，时时检视身、口、意三方面的行为。为了破除心的执著，了解所有的现象皆如海市蜃楼中的绿洲一般空无虚有，美丽的外相无益於心，丑陋的外相也无害於心。斩断希望与恐惧、喜爱与憎恶的连结，安住於平等舍之中，了解所有的现象只不过是自心的投影。一旦你知道什么是绝对的真理，你将认清眼前所有的相对现象只不过是一个幻影，一场梦，并且不再执著於它，认清实相即是空，就等於破除了思想的限制。

Forgiveness is like an umbrella ....

💝原諒是一種慈悲！

Forgiveness is a compassion !!

In your life ,
 you will encounter many difficult circumstances,  including those people who seem troublesome . If you do not know how to forgive , you will be living a life in suffering and disturbance .

人的一生中会遇到不顺心的事
会碰到不顺眼的人
如果你不学会原谅
就会活得很痛苦
活得很累。

Forgiveness is a kind demure , a virtue ; Forgiveness is a solution , a catalyst , that makes mutual understanding possible . Forgiveness is like an umbrella protecting you while walking in the rain.

原谅是一种风度
是一种修养
原谅是一种溶剂
一种相互理解的润滑油。
原谅像一把伞
它会保护你
帮助你在雨中前行。

People possess different levels of intellects ,  personal cultivations , and various aspects of perceptions. Different ways of principles and management would definitely be diffident among different people .  To forgive others means to place yourself at a higher level of perspective , (as to be more compassionate .)

人和人的学识不同
见识不同
修养不同
对事物的看法自然就不一样，
处理问题的方式
方法也就不一样
原谅他人等于把自己放在了一定的高度
（也就是更加的慈悲⋯）

It is normal to have contentions, arguments, and contradictions in a human relationship. If someone would misunderstand you , it is easier if you are not worried much but instead responded with a smile. Time  will prove the truth .  To be appreciative and cherish what you are given .

人与人之间有碰撞
有摩擦、有矛盾
是很正常的
对别人的误解
不妨试着置之一笑
给时间一个印证的机会
珍惜

Willingness of Self-sacrifice is a necessary attitude to forgive others . You need to have an open heart and open mind and moreover , to sacrifice does not mean you are weak and fragile .  

原谅别人需要有自我牺牲的精神
要有一个宽阔的胸怀
吃亏并不代表软弱可欺　　

To Forgive !
Life appears as the sky above you, for it will not always be clear and transparent . When the sun shines upon you , it makes you joyful . When the clouds rampant , it makes you blue .
Life will not award you with fortune and joy always , but it will provide you with various experiences , including sourness , sweetness, bitterness, spice and saltiness .
原谅生活
因为它像天空一样
不会永远纯净透明
晴空万里时
它会让你欢笑
乌云密布时
它也会使你忧郁
它不会让你一直幸运幸福
它会让你尝遍酸甜苦辣咸。

If you cannot forgive , you will certainly feel much pain within . If you do not forgive , you will  feel as living in torment , or  hell , filled with fury vengeance and suffering !  

假如你不能原谅
一定会痛苦不堪
后果是你会生活在“水深火热”之中，郁郁不乐。

March 2016 . Dilgo Tashi Rinpoche , Ah-Se Monastery .Translation by Angelina Lee

Passion of Angel's Tears ....

❤️
2/5 I think something is wrong with my tear gland for the past 2 days .

I have been overly sensitive in every incident occurred to others , in considering I am always so " cool " and somewhat cold and calm in others description.

First of all , in an article,  one was describing his story in world war 2, then , one video demonstrated the sovereign of the Republic of  China ; there was another story about Tibet ，India ...

I burst into tears ...

Unusually sensitive . Yes, as compassionate as I felt , I suddenly remember the sadness when I saw the film " passion of the Christ "  . I cried over the ignorance of these people who crucified Jesus ..

I felt the perception of the world was different  , in a vast spectrum ....

The wind blowed in my eyes ,
Unveiled the adornment ...
Sadness as I see ...
Resistance is futile ,
my fellow lovers .
Enjoy the turmoil and hardship if it strikes you ...
Cry and shout if you wish ....
Ignorance is thy names ...
Stand still and be cool
Or be sad and mournful as they ?
Pray ,
Pray to Buddhas , to Guru , to all protectors ...
As this is the only gift I can offer .
My tears run like river water ,
As the world turns in accordance to your wish ..
Let's pray ....
Yes, lovers , all of you are !

Distance me if they have desire
Confront me if they  have anger
Disrespect me if they are ignorant !

Yes, something is not right in my eyes , the world move so silently ; something is wrong with my ears , the inner and far reaching sound of exclaims permeate .....

This is why , in my bad habit , I would stop to feel again !!
Grand me not !

In Search of Angel's Dream ~~~

I really do not know what triggered my emotion .
I actually cried in my dreams .... and also when I woke up ...
Fear of someone's intrusion , and moreover, the worse is the fact of utilizing  the name of love . This is something I need to work on, to resolve this issue seriously !!
Do I hate this person this much?

Is it true that I have transposed my emotions on J who had an opposite hobbies and preferences over  many things ? Suddenly, I discovered no one truly love you or love the true you. Everyone only likes parts of you, which may not be a problem, if purity view is exercised..Nonsense though...

Jealousy ? perhaps. You feel J treats others better than you, ( This may be so deviated and wrong but , I do feel this way anyhow ,,,) because he likes them better no matter how close you think his heart in embedded in you. Do not deceive yourself by thinking it is a training but be courageous and stand up , as long as you aim to a direction, the passion will arise ,

Passion do not come to you , merely because you aspire seeking for it. you need to live in action and the passion will arise instantly ,  These are theories? But how do you apply them here . When I encounter the world with  nonchalant attitude, my response from the world is cool ; the opposite side not surprisingly, the resolve appears to be similar, but not advancing or improving.... . Yes, still cool ... well...you say it is the problem of my expectations.... I should not expect to have returns. But I do aware the fact of non passionate response ....

Is it true that man and woman can only have physical relationship?
Due to physical attraction ! If it is true, is it lacking of alluring , flirting, and sexaual temptaion let the outcome not matching my expectations.

J has a poised , asserted , assured, confident, and telepathic look when he stare at me, which can last for 3 minutes long without words. What is the trigger of making me overturned emotion sinking into abyss ? It was the pet ...  Well. I dislike dogs...for they are just not beautiful at all , ugly and filthy I would say. Rejoice ! If this is the gift he loves. But sad, why? why can I love dog over Cat? There is a gift shadow as well. Do you give gift in accordance to his needs and preference only? only do you give gift because you think you like this thing which may be useful for him as well? Anyway....Motivation is important. Do not need to care they like it or not.... as long as I mean well.

This person I was so afraid of, in fact , was trying to rape me in my dreams. This dream demonstrated how much the damages have encoded in my heart through years of fear of having knowing this person W. Well... Still need to resolve this problem of fear !
This is such a spiritual and physical torture...

 When the void feeling felt so strongly in me instantly when I felt something is not normal ...... I smell the turmoil in K .... Something clicked, and I cried....Because, this is the fact that nobody will like you or love you as much as you like them or love them. All the relationships are not equal, not balance , not mutual , not neutral  ! You  have the accept this non equality of life in the universe.

Please do not preach me on equal rights, treating all sent seint beings equally, or else.... because not even Buddha treat everyone equally ... they have preferences....and so do we! What is the guideline or principle they follow I don't know. I know what we follow is over our emotions of liking, such as desire of owning over a beautiful form, material, or physical , or human beings, desire of fame, desire of super power, privilege,  winning praises, popularity, and so on..... I don't know what are the principles of Buddhisattva's preference?  Because someone is on the edge of dieing or in danger? or someone has more influential power and financial support?
Or someone is more attractive ? or else? Or I should not perceive their deeds by a mundane view , which involve with dualism of conceptions , judgement, critiques, and  standards, and all kinds of modern terms of concepts. So commercial , and so business now..... well...I may be wrong ...

Yes, I am certain I am wrong.

I have diverged my thoughts already. The emotions burst out is due to my lacking of reference, and emotional harboring anchor ....

Please save me my Guru, please clear my thoughts, please clarify my dual judgement, please clarify my hatred ....Yes, this person W has taught me the darkest side of human beings which I have never encountered...! I have lived in heaven all life and never seen violence, hatred, deprivation, betrayal,  conspiracy , and darkness in life, Thank to him. Now it is time to have awareness and also go beyond what I have experienced ! Let's Rise and be courageous !

If passion is something illusory, I am not going to seek for passion! If love is something to contribute instead of receiving, I am not going to explore.... ! So what else? my darling? That is the reason I cried now I know...

To be a non human being ....  

Prayer on the first day of 2016

Miss You ~~ my Guru, Lama , my Masters, and my Mentors ~~~~

Please come to my dream tonight to guide me !

It brought me into tears again on this day of celebration and reminiscence, when you first guided me to the light , awoke me from my nightmere, where monsters stabbed on my back with thousands of decieving swore, and allured me with lies and temptation !

While nothing needed to be recovered, for there were merely my immaginations and illusions.  As a result, here I offer to you my deepest prayer , and my body speech and mind ~~


I pray that you dwell in my heart always, you take care of me always, I can reamin compassionate and with wisdom as walking above the clouds of samsara, I can recognize my true nature of mind in this lifetime , as you reamin turning the wheel of Dardhma whenever the uniserse exists , and all my loved ones and all the senteint beings will realize the truth of the emptiness. 

1/1/2016

Dedication to HH Penor Rinpoche, HH Dalai Lama, HE Mugsang Kuchen RInpoche, Dzongzar Khyentse Rinpoche, Kungtrul Rinpoche ....

Prayers ~~~

Not all prayers get answered instantly, but if you have patience, one bright day, the answer will become clear. 💕💕💕